till the world ends

would you go into a relationship with just msn and hotmail as means of communication? would you say that u can commit in this without seeing each other at all for 3 years? would u also say that u loved each other so much that u are willing to give up anything else just for you two to be together?

if only you knew how i felt.

if only you bothered listening to my reasons why i did everything. the reason why i feel insecure all the time, the reason why I’m reacting like this all the time.

if only you provided me the assurance that i need. not everyone is like us. i went through these three years only to find out on the last year that u were faking it. how should i react? i gave you a chance , just like that. but it was never the same for me.

all these while, I’m always blamed for the chain of events that happened. be it my fault, or u misunderstanding me. it came to a point where i gave up and just let you accuse me , without letting you know whats the real reason behind my every move. thinking that you will ask me or believe me. but, boy was i wrong. 

looking at those long distance relationships video online really made me wonder if I’m doing the right thing.

i don’t even know if we are considered being in a relationship when we haven’t met, when we never even hear each other’s voice. not even once have u tried to meet me when you’re here, or so you claimed. why is it me who always want to meet up? you mean you’re contented at how we are right now? just talking online? that is not a relationship. thats a pen pal you’re talking about. i don’t want this. I’m looking for a boyfriend, not a pen pal. one that can be with me whenever I’m upset, whenever i need someone to talk to. and not having to wait for that specific hour to talk to you.

you might see this, you might not. its my feelings and its time u learnt to understand it and not criticize it the moment u know about it.

oh and by the way, never let a girl go to bed crying over you. she will detest you for it and she not forget it. trust me, its what happened to me .